do you ever get the get the feeling,....

that you are being watched?
examined?
questioned?
interpreted?
misunderstood?
misaligned?
maligned?
misconstrued?

do you ever get the feeling,...
that all that matters is the manner of the journey
no journey is without its trials
without risk
without hopes and aspiration
we cannot live our life's in fear
tomorrow is to be embraced
a challenge worthy of winning.


remember: Runningwater never runs dry
 

Today I learnt I was dying

                                                       I got it now!

Today I learnt that I was dying

I learnt that there was no more they could do for me

I learnt that we are all going to die,...

But that never eased my pain

There was so many things I hadn't done

I was so fucking scared

I hadn't had a baby 

Nor bought a house 

Nor found true love

Nor had a skinny latte 

What was so friggin great about living anyhow?

Today I learnt that I was dying

I had run out of credit

Rushed moments became still

Passions unfulfilled

Distant now the memories of a great future

I didn't feel alive,...
What's the point of living if you can't feel alive?

I needed to embrace this

No need to be afraid

They say its the beginning of living

Yup,..they say so much!!

Happy new year!!!

In memory of: Klearh2o ~ gone but never forgotten

What a strange world we live in

What a strange world we live in

Regrettably, America saw the horror of 9/11. It went on to change the whole American psyche. Changes were instigated to ensure such carnage could not occur again on American soil. 

Yet,..

America has had more loses of life thru the internal killing of innocents as in the case of Connecticut and others before it, than the combined victim counts in several wars.

We have to ask the questions :

1.Why are these terrorist always white men from well-to-do family background? ( let's make no bones about it, you are a terrorist  if you can take a gun and shoot down innocent people, especially children) 

2. Why does America have an obsession with Guns?

3. Most importantly, if a thing known as the constitution exist in America. With all its amendments,..why do people say it cannot be amended to stop America from bleeding again!!!

The term constitution by determination means a system off laws enshrined to stop lawlessness and protect the rights of every single American. Beautiful in interpretation simplistic in its ideal,..yet every six months we have this atrocities visited on our children. 

A nation you can say is judged on the way it protects all its citizens. However, when a nation cannot protect its children, there is something seriously wrong. "We have gotta be able to do better than this" - these are the usual  response whenever these horrors occur. You can almost plot when the next outrage will occur. It's sickening and it's enough. 

Were these atrocities caused by America's favourite "go to for blame" (muslim terrorists) the outrage, response and deaths in the Muslim world in terms of American retaliation would have been shock & awe. Does anybody not see the irony???

Those who live in glass houses should not throw stones. The enemy is within in America,..whilst we stand and talk of "fiscal cliff" ( which btw,..most Americans don't understand) we are taking our eyes of the ball. The right to bear arms ultimately coupled with the wacky left could be the final undoing of America. 

The fact is we call it the United States,..however I fear this is only in name. Anyone who has ever lived in America will tell you that neighbour fear neighbour,..state to state. Suspicion abound in a healthy dose and the bad intentioned prey on the mind of the intellectually weak or vulnerable. 

When will it all stop? Maybe when one of the children of the gun lobbyist 

is among the victims of such crimes. However, from experience it's the innocents that usually pay the ultimate prize.

For the children of America 

Remember: runningwater can heal.

I would welcome a change of noose

I would welcome a change of noose

Unrelenting is my evil luck 

Breathless in its predicament 

Unpure, unclean unhealthy

Dark despairing cold and shattering 

Bleak unsparing dangerous 

The rage within an explosion of unfulfilled ambitions

NO

Unfulfilled initiation

Dare I dream?

I would welcome a change of noose

From boy to man

My thoughts, physicality, mind body and soul predetermined

I hear them say where is your God?

Mocking and mockingly

Giddy and without response

I dwell in the arms of pity, debate, social and economic intervention

My history often heard seldom believed 

A cause célèbre?

I would welcome a change of noose

The grip on this one is loosening

There is danger I may engage in self thought 

I may look for hope in a field of despair

Just another day in my life in Gaza

For: Mohamed & Laila. 

For the people of Gaza

Remember: runningwater keeps you clean inside and out

Londres 27novembre,12@07.59

What would you do?

What would you do?

If you lived in the grounds of a MANOR  HOUSE but all your services like gas, electric water roads and resources depended on the manor house. 

They decided when you could travel by road 

They decided when you could have water

They decided when your electric would come on or off

They decided if you could cook with gas today

What would you do?

And if you were tired of the lack of self determination you decided to travel by road without permission from the Manor House.

Your punishment was these same roads were dismantled and road blocks instigated

What you do?

If your water resources we turned off and you couldn't have water for women children and the needy? Your schools couldn't operate, you couldn't trade with neighbours, you couldn't access medication.

What would you do?

If your gas and electric was switched off? 

Because finally, you decided something had to be done. You decided that the very children that were starving and in essence being sacrificed because of the actions of the Manor House.  This same children would be better served by sacrifying them as child bombers!!!

This in itself would go on to serve or solve very little,...but it would bring to the notice the actions of the occupants of the Manor House.

Violence can never and should never be condoned, but given the circumstances of having to live with your entire existence controlled. You have little option but to do,.....SOMETHING

When you DO something, the occupants of the Manor House come out all guns blazing,..acting in complete disproportion to the action you initiated. All you wanted was self determination.

You would have thought the occupants of the Manor House would understand. After all, they were persecuted and killed and slaughtered and any other horror you could imagine.

You would have thought they would understand.

In parts of Europe in the early 16th/17th century, these living arrangements were called FIEFDOMS! But there were some benefits then!!!!

Today 16112012, at the MANOR HOUSE, guns came out blazing and the armies and control units once again surrounded the tiny fiefdom. The occupants have been warned that if they don't desist from self determination, they would be crushed.

Violence should never be condoned by anybody or by either side. However, the cause of the fight are biblical,..the protagonist are long dead, we cannot take any of these lands beyond our current existence, but what we can do is have love for a brother man. Beyond the surface, and egos and posturing, we are EXACTLY the same. Neither shall inherit this earth,..so why kill and maim each other for it. 

Just as a throw away question,... Given what we know of the world. What would the people of the Manor House and the occupants of the Fiefdom do, if ALIENS decided it was time to level this small place where we show each other very little love. After all, when was the last time you explained yourself to a cockroach???

Would the Manor House and fiefdom bat for humanity?

What would you do?

Remember: The possibilities are endless when we dare to dream

Walkkum Salam - 16112012

John Terry Revisited ~ A delicious irony???

If someone said to you several years ago that a white boy who's best mates are mostly black would be found not guilty of racially abusing Anton Ferdinand in a British court of law,with dodgy evidence supplied by one notorious Ashley Cole. A man of sterling qualities (hahahaha)

Wait, there is a question in this piece!!!

If you were told that this same JT would be found guilty by The FA because he did actually admit using racial epithets, banned for only 4 games and fined the equivalent of a weeks wages £200k or so.

If you were told this same JTwould literally run into another notorious footballer of Uruguayan extraction found guilty of racially abusing a certain Patrice Evra and banned for 8 games on very little evidence. 

Would you not call it a delicious irony?

JT maybe out for the season and Saurez unhurt. Suarez, he of the silky football skills, a very good footballer albeit with a penchant for swan diving. 

Isn't it a delicious irony that these sterling characters should meet in such circumstances and one meets out the true punishment we all must experience when we feel we can use fancy lawyers and lies to cover our shortcomings?

You get my drift,... We eventually pay for our misdeeds.

Imagine, if JT had come out at the time of the incidence with Anton and just said: look, I said certain things, it was in the heat of the battle. Am sorry, as a man and role model to kids this is unacceptable. If he had followed it up with an apology to the Ferdinand brothers, England may still have 2 super centre backs now.

It was a delicious irony that those two fellas should meet at Chelsea by accident, one paying and getting his cumuppence and the other the justified plaudits as one of the finest footballers these shores will ever see. 

Remember; runningwater is taken in copious amounts by footballers to restore lost energy. Let it be the from the fountain of truth.

Love simply described,...

These quotes pretty much expresses my personal pursuit of happiness. One should never settle for the half-step. You only have one life to live. Live it in happiness, rich or poor. As the Dalai Lama  said:- "our love for each other should exceed our need for each other"

Remember:running water is life affirming

101112@03.54@londres

Pour vous: Titi, Avec mon amour toujours!