I would welcome a change of noose

I would welcome a change of noose

Unrelenting is my evil luck 

Breathless in its predicament 

Unpure, unclean unhealthy

Dark despairing cold and shattering 

Bleak unsparing dangerous 

The rage within an explosion of unfulfilled ambitions

NO

Unfulfilled initiation

Dare I dream?

I would welcome a change of noose

From boy to man

My thoughts, physicality, mind body and soul predetermined

I hear them say where is your God?

Mocking and mockingly

Giddy and without response

I dwell in the arms of pity, debate, social and economic intervention

My history often heard seldom believed 

A cause célèbre?

I would welcome a change of noose

The grip on this one is loosening

There is danger I may engage in self thought 

I may look for hope in a field of despair

Just another day in my life in Gaza

For: Mohamed & Laila. 

For the people of Gaza

Remember: runningwater keeps you clean inside and out

Londres 27novembre,12@07.59

What would you do?

What would you do?

If you lived in the grounds of a MANOR  HOUSE but all your services like gas, electric water roads and resources depended on the manor house. 

They decided when you could travel by road 

They decided when you could have water

They decided when your electric would come on or off

They decided if you could cook with gas today

What would you do?

And if you were tired of the lack of self determination you decided to travel by road without permission from the Manor House.

Your punishment was these same roads were dismantled and road blocks instigated

What you do?

If your water resources we turned off and you couldn't have water for women children and the needy? Your schools couldn't operate, you couldn't trade with neighbours, you couldn't access medication.

What would you do?

If your gas and electric was switched off? 

Because finally, you decided something had to be done. You decided that the very children that were starving and in essence being sacrificed because of the actions of the Manor House.  This same children would be better served by sacrifying them as child bombers!!!

This in itself would go on to serve or solve very little,...but it would bring to the notice the actions of the occupants of the Manor House.

Violence can never and should never be condoned, but given the circumstances of having to live with your entire existence controlled. You have little option but to do,.....SOMETHING

When you DO something, the occupants of the Manor House come out all guns blazing,..acting in complete disproportion to the action you initiated. All you wanted was self determination.

You would have thought the occupants of the Manor House would understand. After all, they were persecuted and killed and slaughtered and any other horror you could imagine.

You would have thought they would understand.

In parts of Europe in the early 16th/17th century, these living arrangements were called FIEFDOMS! But there were some benefits then!!!!

Today 16112012, at the MANOR HOUSE, guns came out blazing and the armies and control units once again surrounded the tiny fiefdom. The occupants have been warned that if they don't desist from self determination, they would be crushed.

Violence should never be condoned by anybody or by either side. However, the cause of the fight are biblical,..the protagonist are long dead, we cannot take any of these lands beyond our current existence, but what we can do is have love for a brother man. Beyond the surface, and egos and posturing, we are EXACTLY the same. Neither shall inherit this earth,..so why kill and maim each other for it. 

Just as a throw away question,... Given what we know of the world. What would the people of the Manor House and the occupants of the Fiefdom do, if ALIENS decided it was time to level this small place where we show each other very little love. After all, when was the last time you explained yourself to a cockroach???

Would the Manor House and fiefdom bat for humanity?

What would you do?

Remember: The possibilities are endless when we dare to dream

Walkkum Salam - 16112012

John Terry Revisited ~ A delicious irony???

If someone said to you several years ago that a white boy who's best mates are mostly black would be found not guilty of racially abusing Anton Ferdinand in a British court of law,with dodgy evidence supplied by one notorious Ashley Cole. A man of sterling qualities (hahahaha)

Wait, there is a question in this piece!!!

If you were told that this same JT would be found guilty by The FA because he did actually admit using racial epithets, banned for only 4 games and fined the equivalent of a weeks wages £200k or so.

If you were told this same JTwould literally run into another notorious footballer of Uruguayan extraction found guilty of racially abusing a certain Patrice Evra and banned for 8 games on very little evidence. 

Would you not call it a delicious irony?

JT maybe out for the season and Saurez unhurt. Suarez, he of the silky football skills, a very good footballer albeit with a penchant for swan diving. 

Isn't it a delicious irony that these sterling characters should meet in such circumstances and one meets out the true punishment we all must experience when we feel we can use fancy lawyers and lies to cover our shortcomings?

You get my drift,... We eventually pay for our misdeeds.

Imagine, if JT had come out at the time of the incidence with Anton and just said: look, I said certain things, it was in the heat of the battle. Am sorry, as a man and role model to kids this is unacceptable. If he had followed it up with an apology to the Ferdinand brothers, England may still have 2 super centre backs now.

It was a delicious irony that those two fellas should meet at Chelsea by accident, one paying and getting his cumuppence and the other the justified plaudits as one of the finest footballers these shores will ever see. 

Remember; runningwater is taken in copious amounts by footballers to restore lost energy. Let it be the from the fountain of truth.

Love simply described,...

These quotes pretty much expresses my personal pursuit of happiness. One should never settle for the half-step. You only have one life to live. Live it in happiness, rich or poor. As the Dalai Lama  said:- "our love for each other should exceed our need for each other"

Remember:running water is life affirming

101112@03.54@londres

Pour vous: Titi, Avec mon amour toujours!

Après la pluie comme le beau temp

Après la pluie comme le beau temp

The storm gathered and again I was caught in the midst of the madness. 

The still of time held me transfixed  and gripped by the fear within

Thoughts of despair arise

Feverish cold sweats

Demise imminent 

Future comes into sharp focus

Bleak  is the outlook

The lights dims,...

Another night spent in sweat and tears

Sweat and tears as I arise

It wasn't a dream,...

Another unending cycle of despair merging day and night

Familiar becomes my focus 

Acceptance my possibilities

Dread and self loathing 

Rituals of Work, Eat,Drift,Home,Pray

Familiar???

A recurring unending nightmare of days rolled into night into days

Seamlessly loaded with faint memories of Omar

Why? How? And When?

Answers elude me

Acceptance my possibilities?

The storm gathered and again I was caught in the midst of the madness 

I sought refuge in you but,..

No restitude did you offer

But i never stopped believing

Never stopped hoping

Never rested on my laurel

Then you spoke to me

So loud it was deafening

It all happened so quick

Casa, Rabat, Casa, Tribunal, Adul

Moments of joy

Moments of self discovery

The joys of being held

Joy and pain like sunshine and rain

The simple pleasures of sharing

Sharing and loving

Loving and being loved

A soulmate in an unforgiving world

Could it be?

Omar, Cecillia, Tunde???

Oui, après la pluie,...le beau temp

Pour Titi,  mon amour.

 Vraiment,...après la pluie,..le beau temp

Remember: runningwater affirms life.

09102012@londres

Have you had an Emotional Health Check?

This is a serious discourse because of the times we are living in. Too often we are driven along the emotional roller-coaster of life we forget to stop and assess our emotional level of wellbeing.

 An emotional health check is if you  like , a state of the union meeting with your mind, body and spirit. The aim is an emotional MOT, designed  to verify where and if you might be lacking. This should be conducted at least every 3months. Mini reviews should be done every weekend. I call this: "steal a moment, gain a life". Basically, if you are doing these mini self evaluation it will enable you to identify cracks in your emotional well being. Ensuring issues identified can be resolved before they fester and harm or disrupt your positive energies.

 "Steal a moment, gain a life" : a process by which we identify frailties in our emotional well being and by so doing, live a longer and more productive life.

Our emotional status is often governed by the people we share our lives with. Be it employers, family, friends lovers or casual acquaintance. And so the questions are: 

A. Where do you start?

Ans: Always With do I love myself?

Without loving who you are, you cannot begin to love nor appreciate others. Nor they you. With this answered we need to look at what I call "the emotional template"  These are codes of conducts by which you live your life and may include the following:

A. Do I take ownership for my actions?

B. What energies am I projecting?

C. What's perceived, what's real?

D. Am I striking an emotional balance?

E. Am I worthy?

F. What are my core beliefs?

Most of the above are self explanatory, so I shan't be explaining each "coc" Suffice to say, that each action begins with the first step. Essentially, do I have issues that require an emotional rinse cycle. Once identified, the elephant in the room can be taken out to graze. 

What are the benefits of an emotional health check?

Many would assume the answer or answers were obvious. However, think about it this way. If you've never had a breakdown, how would you recognise you needed treatment. Point here is, we should never assume. The lines between serenity and madness is very thin. Our daily pursuit of paying the bill leaves us very little time to even consider the madness within. We only really find consciousness once we have found damage. 

The purpose of my piece is to generate conversation and a momentum for self analysis and awareness. An emotional health check will give you mind, body and spiritual balance. This equilibrium will help you find perception and understanding of others. 

In the next piece, we shall examine: Body and in the final part: Spirituality. 

Remember: runningwater flows thru a myriads of sources.

04102012@18.55

Ode to Modupe

Modupe fun e aburo

You make me smile 

Just the simple thought of your name: olusola modupe. 

Could you have been better named?

From my earliest memory to my latest 

Candy and sweetness are what comes to mind when I think of you 

But wait 

I remember being caught by mama for staring at her in the toilets when we were young.

Little did she know I was merely playing hide and seek with you. 

And even today, even though I hide, you still you still seek my best interest in your own inimitable style.

What i most admire about you 

Is that,...

Although am your elder brother 

You have always looked out for my best interest and with respect  

Even thru my bouts of arrogance and flights of fancy.

There are not many people in this world you can say genuinely love you without question and thru all your faults.

Modupe fun e aburo

I wish that one day I can be 10% of the 100% you have been for me.

Modupe fun e aburo

Olorun a wa pelu e titi laye

I love you without restraint even when it's not so obvious.

Olumide babafunsho oluyomi awolesi.x 201012@04.58